Hey baby,
I sure do miss you.
Sometimes I feel you nearby, so close I can almost feel your hand in mine. And then there are times when I really need you close… and you’re just not there.
I need your advice, my love. On so many things.
I’m not doing well.
Back in May, I was the high-morals, piano-playing church lady. I felt like I was under too much pressure at the piano, so I stepped down. And when I did, it felt like a house had been lifted off of me.
But then… I started slipping.
I began going out to bars, looking for something. Companionship. A dance partner. Something.
Looking back over the last few weeks, I think I’ve danced maybe four dances total. So that part hasn’t exactly worked out.
I met someone who took up space in my mind for a few weeks. But this weekend, it hit me - you wouldn’t like him. Not at all. In fact, you’d probably call him your favorite word… a worm.
I’ve been calling him a weasel.
Either way, he hasn’t been good for me, and I know it. I made a mistake letting him into my life.
He’s gone now.
And I’m left here missing you.
I want you back, but I know that’s not possible. You’re not here… and some days that reality is just hard to carry.
The loneliness without you is so hard to explain.
I never imagined it could feel like this.
Even when I went through that divorce before we met… it wasn’t this bad.
Not even close.
I miss you.
The warmth of your body up next to me tight!
The love we once shared I'll never forget!
The chance I took I'll never regret!
Finding love again is a tough call!
I feel like this woman has put up a wall!!
I know no two people are exactly the same,
If I don't find love again, I know I'm to blame!!
So help me God to try and understand
Gimme a sign, or a lending hand!!
I've tried to move on and tried to let go!!
But my love for my husband always will show!!
