Dearest Charlie,
I know that in one of my earlier posts, I mentioned that I was going to start de-cluttering the utility room. Well, it took me a while. I tried. But the first thing I put my hand on was the hospital bag with your slippers still inside. I couldn't de-clutter then. Fast Forward a year, and I started getting it done. I think it was April (?), I can't remember. I've been doing a little at a time.
It took me 3 days to do the utility room. Another couple of days for the kitchen. OH! I found your dogtags and military medals! I was so excited to find them! Why in the world did you put them on top of the kitchen cabinet? I ALMOST threw them away not knowing what was inside that little plastic bag! Thank heavens I opened it to see what it was! I bought a little shadow box and put the pins and medals in that for display next to your flag.
OH, and you'd be so excited to hear this too! Kyle got MARRIED! YEP! Him and Kaylee finally tied the knot! They even got a picture printed of you to put on the memory table at their wedding. They then went on a honeymoon to Sandals resort in Jamaica. They had a really great time and he was so excited about it. He misses you very much also. He is still driving that old truck you gave him. Somehow, he's keeping it going!
After the wedding, I got back to de-cluttering and tackled our bedroom. I cannot believe how much STUFF we have accumulated over the years! Good-NESS! When Kyle went in during a visit, he nearly fell over! He hollered, "MOM! Have you been ROBBED?"
I de-cluttered the living room and dining area too, hauling off boxes and boxes of stuff to Goodwill and burning the rest. Slowly, the house is coming back together on the inside. But Dahlin', it's falling apart on the outside. It's only a matter of time before something will HAVE to be done. The marriage wall that holds the two halves together is coming apart inside due to the house becoming unlevel and sinking in the mud. I don't understand why you put it where it is. Just a few more feet forward and it would be on a more solid foundation.
No matter now though. I'll just have to figure out what to do, if anything, and take care of it.
Well, enough about that.
Your 2nd Father's Day in Heaven is approaching. Tell PawPaw and Granny we said hello and we miss them too. I guess you've seen Steve and both of you met Wade when he arrived. We love and miss you all tremendously.
Love Always,
Me
Jun 10, 2019
Jun 6, 2019
2019, Jun 6 - 16 months and a Dog attack
Dearest Charlie,
I am so very sorry that I haven't posted in so long. I have learned so much and so much has happened since I last wrote a year ago.
I've been really mad at you for a while now. How dare you leave me in such a position? Not filing the TAXES? REALLY? I had to hire an attorney to untangle the mess. At this point, I'm not sure what's going to happen. I just got a letter today from the IRS saying they have received all the documents I sent them and they would give me a "complete response" within 90 days. Well, here's hoping they feel sorry for me!
The girls have been coping pretty good this year. M1 has really developed artistically and is using that as her outlet. She has come so FAR! M2 - well, now, THIS child is REALLY yours! Good Lawd! All I can say in just a few words is that she's been a HANDFUL! Disrespect, Disobedience, Theft, among just a few things. However, she's gotten better during this past month.
On Thursday, I drove her to a friends house to deliver a birthday gift. Though I saw a Beware of Dog sign, I really didn't think much of it. I had been there before and so had she and neither one of use ever had any problems with the 4 dogs (a pit, 2 pit mix boxers, a catahoula mix). I parked the car and told her to take the gift to her friend. I had no intentions of getting out of the car.
The 4 dogs came up and approached her, sniffing her hands, acting friendly, barking a little, but nothing of concern. Then as she tried to get closer to the house, they got more aggressive. Jumping on her, scratching her, nipping at her jeans and though not yet biting, they were catching the fabric on her jeans. She ended up dropping the gift in the driveway and slowly made her way back to the car. As she reached, the car, the dogs determined that she was not going to get in. She opened the car door, then they started biting flesh and they began pulling her away from the car!
She stayed calm and managed to get inside the car and closed the door on the head of one dog. I honked the horn and, for a second got their attention, then I threw the gear in reverse and began moving. The attack was stopped and then M2 fell apart.
I took her home and told her to get in the shower with antibacterial soap. Then I took her to the ER to get checked out and make a report. The owner called to check on her and informed me that this was the 2nd attack in as many months! The dogs had to be quarantined for 10 days. Two will be put down and the other two re-homed. I felt bad that he's losing his dogs but sheesh Charlie!
I really NEED you here to deal with such things! When I got home, I kept trying to remember what it is that you would do in such a situation. Would you have gone down there and shot the dogs? Would you have gone with filing a report? What would you have done? I can't remember anymore!
I miss you so much! I miss our life together. I miss having you around our girls. I miss even hearing you snore. I miss everything about you. I wish I didn't have to live without you now.
Love,
Me
I am so very sorry that I haven't posted in so long. I have learned so much and so much has happened since I last wrote a year ago.
I've been really mad at you for a while now. How dare you leave me in such a position? Not filing the TAXES? REALLY? I had to hire an attorney to untangle the mess. At this point, I'm not sure what's going to happen. I just got a letter today from the IRS saying they have received all the documents I sent them and they would give me a "complete response" within 90 days. Well, here's hoping they feel sorry for me!
The girls have been coping pretty good this year. M1 has really developed artistically and is using that as her outlet. She has come so FAR! M2 - well, now, THIS child is REALLY yours! Good Lawd! All I can say in just a few words is that she's been a HANDFUL! Disrespect, Disobedience, Theft, among just a few things. However, she's gotten better during this past month.
On Thursday, I drove her to a friends house to deliver a birthday gift. Though I saw a Beware of Dog sign, I really didn't think much of it. I had been there before and so had she and neither one of use ever had any problems with the 4 dogs (a pit, 2 pit mix boxers, a catahoula mix). I parked the car and told her to take the gift to her friend. I had no intentions of getting out of the car.
The 4 dogs came up and approached her, sniffing her hands, acting friendly, barking a little, but nothing of concern. Then as she tried to get closer to the house, they got more aggressive. Jumping on her, scratching her, nipping at her jeans and though not yet biting, they were catching the fabric on her jeans. She ended up dropping the gift in the driveway and slowly made her way back to the car. As she reached, the car, the dogs determined that she was not going to get in. She opened the car door, then they started biting flesh and they began pulling her away from the car!
She stayed calm and managed to get inside the car and closed the door on the head of one dog. I honked the horn and, for a second got their attention, then I threw the gear in reverse and began moving. The attack was stopped and then M2 fell apart.
I took her home and told her to get in the shower with antibacterial soap. Then I took her to the ER to get checked out and make a report. The owner called to check on her and informed me that this was the 2nd attack in as many months! The dogs had to be quarantined for 10 days. Two will be put down and the other two re-homed. I felt bad that he's losing his dogs but sheesh Charlie!
I really NEED you here to deal with such things! When I got home, I kept trying to remember what it is that you would do in such a situation. Would you have gone down there and shot the dogs? Would you have gone with filing a report? What would you have done? I can't remember anymore!
I miss you so much! I miss our life together. I miss having you around our girls. I miss even hearing you snore. I miss everything about you. I wish I didn't have to live without you now.
Love,
Me
Apr 17, 2019
2019, Apr 17 - Your ashes
Dearest Charlie,
I just wanted to let you know that I changed my mind about scattering you hither and yon. I found that there was no way I could afford a plane ticket to Alaska to scatter you up there. Besides, I'm not sure I'm very welcome anyway. I'll have to tell you about that another time.
Today, Church Funeral Services buried your brother Wade's ashes at the foot of your parents grave. I decided you might be happier there as well, so I took you to be buried also. They did give me a handful of your ashes to scatter on the home place though. So I do have part of you. I just don't know WHAT part of you I have. :D Maybe your right arm. Anyway, I will scatter you back at the deer plot and behind the house off the bayou. Your favorite places to roam. Will that be okay with you? You don't have to answer, I'm just going to assume it will be.
I saw a cardinal yesterday. I don't see them often, but when I do, I like to think that you are somehow dropping by to check on me and the girls. This cardinal just hopped around the yard for a VERY long time. Hop Hop Hop about 3 inches at a time. He looked really healthy though, so I just guess he was hunting for crickets or something. He flew away when I made a move to open the front door for a closer look.
We love and miss you so much, my Love.
Love,
Me
I just wanted to let you know that I changed my mind about scattering you hither and yon. I found that there was no way I could afford a plane ticket to Alaska to scatter you up there. Besides, I'm not sure I'm very welcome anyway. I'll have to tell you about that another time.
Today, Church Funeral Services buried your brother Wade's ashes at the foot of your parents grave. I decided you might be happier there as well, so I took you to be buried also. They did give me a handful of your ashes to scatter on the home place though. So I do have part of you. I just don't know WHAT part of you I have. :D Maybe your right arm. Anyway, I will scatter you back at the deer plot and behind the house off the bayou. Your favorite places to roam. Will that be okay with you? You don't have to answer, I'm just going to assume it will be.
I saw a cardinal yesterday. I don't see them often, but when I do, I like to think that you are somehow dropping by to check on me and the girls. This cardinal just hopped around the yard for a VERY long time. Hop Hop Hop about 3 inches at a time. He looked really healthy though, so I just guess he was hunting for crickets or something. He flew away when I made a move to open the front door for a closer look.
We love and miss you so much, my Love.
Love,
Me
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