Hello my Love,
I'm
so sorry I haven't written in a few days. There's just so much to keep
up with. On Friday, I had my counseling session. I explained my
dreams about you to the counselor. Saturday, M1 had a birthday party to
go to and I spend some time alone with M2.
Sunday
was Mother's Day. Our first one without you here. Kyle came to church
and took me and the girls to lunch at P-Beau's. It was really nice.
Then, he did something that made me cry. He stepped up. He offered to
do what you would've done if you'd been here. He offered to take the
girls to the store to get something from them to me for Mother's Day.
He was so sweet to do that! However, he did not get to. I thought I
had to be back at church, so I told him not to worry about it. As soon
as we parted ways, I got the text that I did NOT have to be back at
church. So much for that. So, I came home and took a 3 hour nap.
On
Monday, I had to get up early and drive Samantha up to Zachary. I
thought I would be up there all day. But it was finished early. So, I
drove her back to her house, then came home. As soon as I got home, I
spotted her keys on the center console of the truck. That meant that I
had to drive ALL the WAY back up to her place to return the keys. As
soon as I completed that task, I came back home. I ran a big tub of hot
water and climbed in. My body is physically tired. My soul is tired.
My emotions have been running the gamut. I miss you so much. You
should be here with us.
I'm
so very sorry about the morning you passed over. I was so scared that
my tears would scare you. I never wanted you to see me crying and that
be the last thing that you see. I should never have left your side. I
will regret that for the rest of my days. I should not have walked
away from you.
M1
is having a hard time and is counseling for it. She is doing better
though. I think I got her in there at the right time. M2 is doing well
and hasn't expressed any need for the counseling. I think I'll
schedule an appointment for her though, just in case.
Today,
I had a doctor's appointment and then met with a friend for lunch.
Then I took M1 to her counseling session. After that, I came home and
found your sister's husband Gary here doing some brush cutting. We
started a burn pile and I was hauling limbs from all around to put on
the burn pile. The back yard is looking really good now! He also cut
the trash shrubs from along the side of the driveway.
Tomorrow,
I will go to my weekly widow's meeting. Then, I'll get the girls from
school so M2 can do her musicianship club requirements. After that, M2
will have her guitar lesson and then we'll go to church. Somewhere in
there, I will take a nap or two.
We miss and love you so very much. You were and will always be adored.
Your loving wife,
Me
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