Chahles Dahlin' I miss you so much. I wish I could see your face again, hold your hand, hear your voice. I wish you knew.
I went to the annual Prism Music conference today. This time it was held in Zachary. As usual, I was excited to go and hear the new Christmas stuff just being released. I drove that whole ride on the interstate feeling really positive and upbeat. Then I exited at Exit 8A and took a right. Suddenly, I got hit right in my chest by a force so strong that I couldn't breath. Apparently, I was right in that area that you had to do some inspections and I tagged along with you. I wasn't expecting all those emotions to ambush me like that! I'm on my way to a stinkin' music conference!
I cried and cried all the way to the parking lot of the church. Then I sat in the truck and cried more when I got there. I finally dried my tears and went inside to hear the music and feel better.
I later thought about it and wondered about dating again. What if I was on a date and I am ambushed by those feelings again? Do I just cry? Will said date understand or will he get jealous of my love for a deceased husband? This is all so confusing! I just want my old life back, my old husband back.
After the conference, I just came straight home because I'm selling all the sheet metal and galvanized studs you had collected over the years. My goal is to get $3,000 for the whole shebang! Once I have that cash in hand, then I can finish the driveway and purchase one of those little metal carports for the end. A couple of people have emailed and are trying to lowball me One guy even had the gall to ask if I meant to ask for $300!!! HAH! You'd be proud of the way I told him, "Um, NO!"
Speaking of you being proud of me. I would hope that you are. I went and sang with Jody yesterday and though they tell me that I did a good job, I was pitchy to start with and had no stage presence. It certainly could have gone better than it did. I'm trying my best to stay strong for the girls. I cry everyday and I know how you would hate that for me. But I can't help it because I miss you too much!
Well, I'm sorry this is so short, but the girls have to be at LPCC in just a few minutes.
Love and Miss you tremendouly,
ME
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